[Wednesday July 5th, 2006 at 3:01pm] [ mood | pissed off ] well i got accepted back to the airline academy and i tunred my first book in a couple of days ago, so overall thats been going good. im still on the reach on looking for a new job and i seem to be having bad luck. which sucks because i cant wait for the day that i leave mcdonalds. yesterday i realized that ive been working there for about 1yr and 7months, now thats a long ass fucking time. so some kind of change would be nice. i finally got a car! which is really exciting, because ive been wanting one forever, and i must confess, its been pretty nice :) lately ive been missing alot of people like carzy. all the memoires and stupid shit we took part in. sdghbsdjfgnbjksdfg. post comment

this is hell [Thursday June 8th, 2006 at 1:59am] [ mood | crappy ] I applied back to the Airline Academy. But just like before, i'm having second thoughts. I cancled the first time I signed up because I didnt want to leave Florida, I wanted to live a college life, and I just wanted to be around people I knew, my friends, my best friend, my family. As of now, all of those still stand but now I have one more added. I'm head over heals in love with this boy, my boyfriend Eric, and my biggest fear is loosing him. And it's not the "Stephanie, you'll be fine, he's just another boy" kinda thing. I can't even begin to explain how much he means to me. But just the thought of loosing him, makes me break down. The last thing I want is to loose him. I would do anything just to... ugh it's just so hard to explain. I never realized how hard life would turn out to be after you leave highschool. How many choices you have to make, and how that choice you make, could just change your whole world. I feel like i'm running out of time, but in reality life is just beginning, and i'd hate to say but "I'm not ready for this at all" 2 comments|post comment

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